Tag: let go

Enough

And then she found her way,
not because she knew where she was going,
but because she slowly allowed herself to fall in love with the person she was.
And that was enough.

“She slowly allowed herself to fall in love with the person she was.

And that was enough.”

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The journey included getting lost,  
it showed her twists and turns she hadn’t anticipated. Her horse blinds of the one track life she had anticipated were ripped off.

“But then she realised she was her own compass.”

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She felt lost, unplanned and as if she lacked direction. But then she realised she was her own compass.  
Where was she going? She had no idea.  
Was she ready to embrace it with all of her?

Absolutely.

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Prison of love

It didn’t matter so much anymore, if I told him what I thought, really thought. He was no longer a part of me I was willing to water. I did not think of him unless it was for a practical purpose, or to learn a new lesson about myself. It felt like I was slowly freeing myself from the prison of love I had trapped myself in (for only I had chosen to let myself be stuck in there). As I left that space and walked back towards myself, I gave all of that love back to me. For the first time, in a very long time. I felt safe again.

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The Compare


The change into something new, someone new.
Every moment re-navigating and learning from scratch once again.
Trying to figure out if it is incredible or you’re blinded once more.
Finding traits so much better than before, accepting kindness you’ve never experienced.

“re-navigating and learning from scratch once again.”

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But you hesitate.
You’re scared of letting go with someone new.
You compare, contrast, question and over analyse every tiny detail.
Have you let go?
Have you landed into a space of enjoying the journey?

“But you hesitate.
You’re scared of letting go with someone new.
You compare, contrast, question and over analyse every tiny detail.”

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You tell yourself over and over it’s not a destination.
Why so wound up?  It’s only been a few months.
That doesn’t help, last time it was over half a decade and they left.

There it is again, the compare.
We all do it.
After all, it is our only reference point, everything that ever broke us, follows us, keeps us on our toes.

“There it is again, the compare.
We all do it.
After all, it is our only reference point, everything that ever broke us”

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You sit in your head overthinking, overdreaming.
Then they do something, it is so small you barely acknowledge it consciously.
Somehow you’ve let them in, you’ve let them in and you’re still scared
And still learning.

You recount endless discussions trying to make sure you don’t break again.
And in that moment you realise you can’t,
You can’t compare.
Your emotions must be free to be able to even contemplate new change,
New things,
New people.

“You can’t compare.
Your emotions must be free to be able to even contemplate new change”

@tozandothersaltywords

So go feel it,
Leave the comparisons, the memories of heartbreak and hard lessons far from the new.
Stop using them as an excuse.
Stop letting them mute your happiness,
For what’s in front of you has never harmed you nor given you reason to hesitate.
Go love freely, be honest with yourself, remember you’ve never been in this position before and unless they give you a reason to,
Stop the compare.

“Stop using them as an excuse.
Stop letting them mute your happiness,
For what’s in front of you has never harmed you nor given you reason to hesitate.”

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Let Yourself Land (part 3)

Thanks to Danielle Wills for inspiring this entire trilogy, sometimes people have no idea how much their words affect, inspire and heal others and I hope mine can give at least one person as much help as Danielle’s gave to me.

And once you’ve landed in that love for yourself, know this.
They will feel it.
They will want to be part of it.
And they will try everything in their power to prove to you that they should bask in your new found happiness with you.

“And they will try everything in their power to prove to you that they should bask in your new found happiness with you.”

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By then though, you’ve already gone through the rollercoaster,
Got off and
Walked onto the next ride.
Don’t get me wrong, when they show up, it’ll hurt.
You’ll wonder why they couldn’t have said all of these things,
Been all of these things,
loved you like that,
When you were together.
But you smile to yourself knowing that when you walked away, you knew that was probably going to have to be forever.

“By then though, you’ve already gone through the rollercoaster, got off and walked onto the next ride.”

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You’ll think about how far you have come.
Yes, tears will fall, as your memory triggers to every iota of pain you had to overcome and yes it’ll feel shit, the flood gates will open, you will howl on your floor half screaming in anger at them and the other at you for ever letting someone treat you like that.

“Yes, tears will fall, as your memory triggers to every iota of pain you had to overcome”

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The empowering part will be that through all those tears you do not want them back, but are ready to finally say the last goodbye.
You will sit up and realise they are the final tears.
The final hurt,
The last time the salt water will cascade down your cheeks because of them.
And as you let the final drops fall, you feel lighter.
You inhale and feel the breath enter your lungs fully, as if for the first time.

You’re now fully ready, for what’s next.

“You will sit up and realise they are the final tears.
The final hurt,
The last time the salt water will cascade down your cheeks because of them.”

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Letting yourself Land (part 2)

Crash landing & letting go

Letting go isn’t necessarily what you need to do. Letting yourself land, puts you in a space where eventually you realise one day that you have let go.

Just saying let go makes it feel like an instant occurrence…as if you can just be done with what’s causing you pain. But you can’t. It is not instant and it is not going to happen when you want it to or think you need it to. I’m sorry to say you will have to sit with it.

“It is not instant and it is not going to happen when you want it to or think you need it to.”

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You will have to land in the uncomfortable matrix you’ve ended up in. It will be raw and uneasy and sometimes the landing will be bumpy as hell, you might even crash land, but…once you have landed, you feel it.

“You will have to land in the uncomfortable matrix you’ve ended up in.”

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You feel the ground beneath your feet, the soil, the mud, the grass, the tarmac, whatever you’ve imagined landing on. And you stand up. Just like that you have landed…and once you’ve landed in that moment of emotions, you have no other option but to begin following your feet all over again.

“once you’ve landed in that moment of emotions, you have no other option but to begin following your feet all over again.”

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Re-trusting your decisions, your path, re-finding your worth and self love. It won’t all be smiles and joy, but my gosh it will heal you, it will teach you true love for yourself. And once you have that love for yourself, no one will be able to break that ever again.

“It won’t all be smiles and joy, but my gosh it will heal you, it will teach you true love for yourself.”

@tozandothersaltywords

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